Bound

I bound this,

I wrapped this,

I caused this,

I'm drained by this. 

I was there,

I am here,

I felt it,

I wept,

entranced by it.

I want this to pass,

I want this to drop,

down to the floor.

I want the wind,

to blow through the pain.

I am lost in this,

I am held in this,

I am blind by this,

I fall by this,

I am bound in this.

Boiled

I boiled my anger;

he never said sorry.

I conversed in my shadows

here, I ruined him with shame

I waited for a whim

to free what I felt

what I got?

real conversations

mind boggling realizations

My Hope

Wake me up when when I'm knee deep in roses. Then sing me back to sleep, to sleep, to sleep. This time of acclamation is harder then perceived. The feelings so strong, these songs come, these songs go. I'm seeing red, but I'm hearing blue. I smell love, but I taste death. I crave blood, but I reach for soap. I try and scrub these memories clean, but somethings, they're no longer worth the pain. My hope, my faith, my love.