Money Man

Always and Forever

is what I used to think

but your kisses always left me

wanting more and more

one foot out the door

is how I always felt

I truly loved you,

but you?

I'll never know

you said it all the time

but now you say you lied

so easy to simply say yes

too cowardly to speak truth

hung up on insecurities

unable to move forward 

you,

disappointing you

always loving you

you haunt my dreams 

and devastate my days

you let yourself down

forever and always alone

is how you choose to be

To My Knees

I climbed in this cave

to find my perspective

I tried to know your soul

To understand mine.

but the world that I knew

was crazed and inflamed

and though it was joyous

those I loved came crashing down

It comes and goes in waves

That I don’t understand,To

I dive under or I fall to my knees

Though it hurts, I crave the sea

I wait for a time for just you and me. 

but fear shakes my core,

and my bones begin to shake

All feels lost, foreign, and forsaken. 

For I thought this time, was to be mine

Fretful Forgetful

Today friend, I miss you. Today.

Meant

If silence can heal,
I know it can kill.
I fell its caress.

Consider your lies
In light of what's real.
Yea-e-e, I could care less.

Forget what you know,
Just get up and go.
Save all you can.

Don't want you to see
When pain overflows
Yea-e-e, you're not my friend.

I still think that we were meant to be
Ooh-oh, lie to me now.
I still dream that you were meant for me
Yea-e-e, why would you doubt?

I don't wanna know,
No, I don't wanna hear
He-e-ey, your smart alibis

I don't wanna feel
This heartache and fear
I don't wanna wait (anymore)
I don't want to be nice

I still think that we were meant to be
(We were destined to be)
Ooh-oh, lie to me now.
I still dream that you were meant for me
(I was made for your love)
Yea-e-e, why would you doubt?

I'm not asking for sympathy
Cause I know what you need me to say
Thanks for what you have given me (Take it back)
I will always remember you watching me walking away, he-e-ey

(I remember all)
Aren't you loving watching me now?
(I remember all)

I still think that we were meant to be
(We were destined to be)
Ooh-oh, lie to me now.
I still dream that you were meant for me
(I remember all)
Yea-e-e, why would you doubt?

Consider your lies
In light of what's real.
Yea-e-e, I could care less.

Till Now

I didn’t get it

till you mentioned it.

I didn’t know,

till I followed.

Carved in the dark,

delighted in my shadow.

You covered my eyes and ran.

Left me blundering,

withering my rose.

I can’t give it up,

love after love.

Naked body covered in scars,

let me hold the remaining shards.

Give it up,

let me love what’s left.

Painted

This slow life

was ruinin’ me fast.

You paint me a picture

I gave you child

Workin’ hard

tryin’ to get right,

but relative is thought,

and relative is love.

Thought about it twice 

you thought about it once

no family, no money.

Naive I am, 

but innocent I’m not.

Pure drop of love

dropped on my eye.

The more I learn

the more I will discover.

And I’m falling,

falling away,

away with you.

Electric

Feel through me, in one cold sweep

let my soul weep in grief.

 Heartless ache, breaks dawn

my day pre-recorded; 

plays what I hate.

Sought out solutions, fueled by desolation

and now that it’s over

my feet stumble forward.

I fall at each rock, 

blood laces my steps;

an echo rings clear

I hear my self breathe.

No longer scared,

I burn with desire.